late night thoughts

My depression has been more intense than it’s ever been. I was supposed to have an appointment with my therapist on Thursday but she has to reschedule due to a family emergency. Completely understandable. Therapists deal with shit in their lives too…but I’m not sure how I’m going to make it until next week. IContinue reading “late night thoughts”

It’s been a while…

So…the title says it all. I sure has been a good long while since I’ve posted anything. To be quite honest, I kinda forgot this blog even existed. Kinda funny how this started out as a blog to document my OT school experience and was going to use it as a way to write aboutContinue reading “It’s been a while…”

Anxiety Updates & COVID-19 Thoughts

Y’all. This past week has been rough, really rough. My OT program transitioned to being fully online the rest of the term and it has definitely taken its toll on me. I miss my people. I miss being in class with my cohort and I miss getting to see all of faculty and staff (someContinue reading “Anxiety Updates & COVID-19 Thoughts”

Therapy Thoughts…

I scheduled an appointment with a therapist. Monday at 4:00. I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t super nervous. The last time I tried therapy it was horribly uncomfortable. I didn’t connect well with the therapist and she just made me feel really awkward. It wasn’t the type of environment I could make progressContinue reading “Therapy Thoughts…”

Late Night Ramblings

It was better for a while, but now it’s getting worse. I thought I was starting to get my anxiety under control, but no… My medication had to be increased again today. Part of me feels like such a failure for it. How did I get here? How did I get to a place ofContinue reading “Late Night Ramblings”

Feeling stuck…

The calorie counting has become obsessive. It didn’t start out this way. It didn’t happen on purpose. It just sorta happened… When my anxiety was at its worst, I was often too nauseous to eat anything. As a result, I lost some weight. And it felt good. It felt good seeing that number drop, seeingContinue reading “Feeling stuck…”